A glimpse of my semester to come....I sure hope not!

So, I will save you the boring details of my daily life...but here was the overall schedule for today:

• Woke up and literally told my mom, "I can't wait to get back in bed tonight"
• Leave house before 7am
• Drop off cupcakes at work for the birthday girl
• Get to school by 8
• Sit in class until 12:15 (try to accomplish things on my checklist during my 15 minute breaks that ended up being 5 minutes due to long-winded teachers)
• Get to work by 12:30
• Leave work at 4
• Drive to campus and find parking (ugh!) while trying to call the people back that called me during work (ignore this part Nana)
• Get to class by 4:30
• Sit in class until 7 (with a sub..it's only the 2nd week. really???)
• Run (this is wishful thinking since I am sitting in class now)
• Order books...yes it's the 2nd week and I still haven't ordered them all
• Catch up with a friend

okay, so maybe I did get a little detailed, but this is how I feel:

I can't hear You...

Lkjdf;ia;weial;ksdnmv;lkasjdf;lajsdf. Yeah, that’s pretty much how I feel right now. Why can’t God just give us a road map at birth of all the twists and turns that make up this crazy thing called life?? I realize that it might cut down (or out) on the whole trust aspect of Christianity…but, dang, it would be so much easier! I’m still clinging to Isaiah 30:21…but Lord, could you maybe make that voice be a little more audible? I’m a little hard of hearing.

Last one...

I'm getting bored with my schedule...as I'm sure you're getting bored with reading it! So, here's the last one:

Thursday:

Worked 8:00-1:00

Grocery shopped for ingredients for dad’s birthday cake

Made vegetable stew to use up ingredients from pantry

Called to make an appointment to take clothes to a re-sale shop

Picked through yard sale pile for clothes worthy to take

Jillian Michaels workout video

Walked at Spain Park in record breaking heat

Freaked out a little over my tuition going up 13%

Calmed down since there’s nothing I can do about it

Entered contacts into my Mac address book

Hung out with friends

Read

cont....

Wednesday:

Begrudgingly got out of bed

Worked 8:00-5:00

Went running with the Trak Shak group

Cleaned my bathroom

Did some laundry

Watched an episode of The Nanny (I know, but I love it!!)

Caught up on my correspondence

Relaxed and watched Raising Helen while blogging

Read

Got to bed early

...

Tuesday:

Worked 8:00-1:00

Grocery shopped

Baked Pineapple Upside-Down Cake for a work birthday

Vacuumed

Swept/Mopped

Washed baseboards, blinds, doorframes, doors, and kitchen cabinets

Made Thank You cards with my new stamps

Went for a run

Met friends at Jackson’s

Didn’t go to bed until after 2am

Keepin' Busy

Summer classes are over and I get a week and half break before beginning again. I spent the first weekend in the mountains with my lovely family (see photo above) and am now back in town, catching up on all I’ve neglected since life got crazy. For the next week (or so) I’m going to update daily with my comings and goings.

Monday:

Worked 8:00-2:30

Doctor Appt.

Jillian Michaels workout video

Walked at Spain Park

Dusted house

Cleaned out closet for future yard sale

Watched TV and did not feel guilty

Read

Abide

I have missed for so long a church where I truly feel at home. All throughout college and my past three years in the working world I have searched for a church I could get involved in. Somewhere that had the perfect mix of needing me (to serve) and me needing them (to be spiritually fed). I have found it…and I am so thankful! Every Sunday I feel challenged, inspired, and just completely Spirit-filled. God spoke to me yesterday and, of course, it wasn’t easy to hear. In my attempt to be more vulnerable…here it is:

I feel like God has been working in my life so much lately. He has been opening my eyes to my shortcomings and struggles and has brought me to a new level of dependence on Him. He is revealing the waste that consumes my time, the fears that consume my thoughts, and the insecurities that hinder my purpose. I never realized what a fearful person I am, but I am terrified of failure. Not of failing myself, but of failing God and others. It is difficult sometimes to fully rely on God, but it is necessary to do so to allow my life to be completely used by Him. It should be a relief to know that I don’t have to do anything but give over control, but for me that has been a great challenge. Lord, give me the courage to put every aspect of life in Your hands, knowing full well that You are more than capable. The only thing I have to do is abide.

"I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing.” John 15:5