{Known}

As the dew falls on the blade

You have touched all this fragile frame

And as a mother knows her baby’s face

You know me, You know me

As the summer air within my chest

I have breathed You deep down into my breast

And as You know the hairs upon my head

Every thought and every word I’ve said

Every thought and every word I’ve said

Savior, You have known me as I am

Healer, You have known me as I was

As I will be in the morning, in the evening

You have known me, yeah, You know me

Oh, and as the exhilaration of autumn’s bite

Oh, You have brought these tired bones to brilliant life

And as the swallow knows, she knows the sky

This is how it is with You and I

Oh, this is how it is with You and I

From the fall of my heart to the resurrection of my soul

You know me, God, and You know my ways

In my rising and my sitting down

You see me as I am, oh, see me as I am

And as a lover knows his beloved’s heart

All the shapes and curves of her even in the dark

Oh, You have formed me in my inward parts

And You know me, You know me, yes

Savior, You, You have known me as I am

Oh, healer, You have known me as I was

As I will be in the morning, in the evening

You have known

I know you are probably tired of me posting lyrics to music, but others just seem to be able to verbalize my emotions better than I am able. Sorry. I love this song for many reasons, but I especially love it because it is a reminder to me that God knows me. He made me! He knows what I desire. He knows what I actually need now and what I just think I need, and everything will come to be in His perfect timing. I really just need to rest in that truth.

Perhaps one of my biggest struggles in life is trying to jump ahead to the next step instead of just being content with the here and now. I wish I took after my mother in that aspect. She truly grasps the idea of living in the present. She makes the most of everyday and never wishes her life away. I’m sad to say that sometimes I feel like my life hasn’t started yet because I’m not married or have a career or have children. The list of “nexts” could go on and on. Yes, life may be uncertain. Yes, life may not seem fair. And yes, life may be hard at times, but that’s just life. It’s not made to fulfill me. True fulfillment will only come when I am presented with the true desire of my heart…Heaven and being in the presence of my Creator. I wasn’t made for this life, which means none of it will satisfy. I know these things in my head, but I do wish they would truly resonate with me.

I want to fully trust that God will provide my every need. Why is that I can be so sure of this truth in some aspects of my life but not in others? Perhaps because I have seen Him faithful in those things; however, faith is not seeing but believing He can and will. I know I learned a song about this as a child based on Hebrews 11:1. “Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things unseen.” I am ashamed of what little faith I have as an adult.

That’s enough of my rambling though! Here are some of the scripture verses that give me encouragement:

“But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him." Hebrews 11:6

”Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.” Romans 5:1-5

and my personal favorite…

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” James 1:2-4